Proverbs 3:5-6

I got fired...

That's right. I got fired. The thing is I've been meaning to quit this job for awhile. I knew ever since January that I was going to quit this job in April. I told myself that no matter what, even if I didn't have another job lined up, I was going to leave this job in April. Was it that bad? Worse.

I even got my friend a job there. He insisted on me helping him get the job even though I told him I wasn't happy there. I subconsciously decided he could replace me. Once he started, I would be gone. Of course he got the job. Employees were getting fired and quitting left and right.

I went to a church conference just before my friend started his training and the guest speaker prayed for people who hated their jobs. He prayed that they become humble in their positions and patiently wait until it was God's time for them to go through a transition. That was not what I wanted to hear. God wants me to wait here in this crappy job? How do I humble myself in such a position?

I prayed. I prayed every day for God to humble me. I also prayed that whatever he has for me, I'm ready for it. I may not have been ready before, but I was ready now. I was on the brink of something. I'm graduating in a couple months. I'm ready for, not just the next step, but the next chapter.

I went out with my friend yesterday and she asked what I needed prayer for. A man in my life? No, not a priority. A job. I'm ready to go. I have these wings that are barely flapping. I need to start living. She didn't mind if I flapped my wings. As long as I didn't go too far.

I got the call last night. Funny enough I got fired for missing my shift that I had requested off to go to the church conference. This is the ultimate humility challenge. I can be humble while working and praying for a better job. I think my real prayer starts now. True humility will begin after I pick up my last paycheque and it sinks in that it's my last paycheque.

I have to put my complete and total trust and faith in Him now. I have no doubt this is a gold speck in disguise that just needs a little dusting off.

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him, and He will make your paths straight."